Good Morning Lovelies,
I'm usually very shy. I mean EXTREMELY shy.
I recall not too long ago, coughdecember2011cough, I could barely get through a phone call without breaking into a sweat. If our BigBoss called me, I'd stutter and stammer and no longer recall how to say good morning or even his name right. Words would mold together to become something incoherent, and I am sure I sound like a clucking chicken.
You're probably thinking I'm making this up, but I can vouch for the truthfulness of my claim. This is the reason I am sometimes uncommentary in public; I am rendered mute from shyness.
You may wonder, how could someone who writes so eloquently (ahem, let me have this one ok?) be such a stuttering mess in public? I can tell you, quite easily.
There is a personality inside of me that is my better self. She knows how to speak her mind, she does not stutter her thoughts, she is full of resolve and conviction, and she is a lioness. She is smart and capable and wonderful and lovely and happy.
You know who I'm talking about. Every one of us has "2.0 Version" of ourselves. It is who we aspire to be, who we wish we could be.
The funny thing is, we are often the ones who create a divide between who we want to be and who we think we are now in the first place. We forget that that better version of us is actually a part of us. It is a matter of tapping into that resolve, into that energy and making use of it. Often times, it takes no more than a decision on your part to become whomever you want to be.
You know when they say often times we are our own worst enemy? It springs true in this instance.
Well, I made the decision that my shyness will not get the better of me. It has crippled me long enough. Once I realized my own power, it was like a switch. I now voice my opinions at meetings, I have better command at my speech in conversation, and as for my BigBoss, I no longer wait for him to call, I call him instead.
You'd be surprised at how wonderfully equipped you already are, use it!
xoxo,
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Salam.....I kind of got bumped here by chance! Was looking out jobs available in uae for stuttering person and I could not resist reading about how local emarati go on with life struggling ,like me, with this out of the world promblem called stammering...I liked ur post! And don't worry if ALLAH wills u will b perfect in no time :) there's always a silver lightning at the end of struggle! :p all the best ! -JUNAID ANSARi
P.s:- as 4 me..iam taking these homopethic pills which I hope will cure my stammering (atleast that's wat my doctor said .....hope it works!) And yes iam coming again to dubai on tuesday to look out for job I hope I get it inspite of my stuttering...ALLAH HAFIZ :)
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